It only takes a day to change it

As I woke up this morning my brother was playing a song by Brno Mars and the song is Runaway. There are lyrics na talaga namang tinamaan ako at nalungkot nanaman ako.. First:

"When everything in love gets so complicated it only takes a day to change it"

Sana nga tama yung lyrics na yan.. Kaso its been two weeks na pero eto pa din.. Super complicated and habang tumatagal the more na nagiging complicated. Hindi naman sobrang laki ng problema eh.. Wala namang third party pero ang problema mismo.. IKAW... masyado kang negative and lahat na ata ng negative vibes kinuha mo.. I'm trying my very best para di ko magawang mapikon or maasar.. KAsi nga I know you too well and alam ko na pag negative ka na.. negative na and hindi ko na mababago yun.. Being your girlfriend it is my responsibility na INTINDIHIN KA.. pero hindi naman ata tama na ako ng ako na lang ang iintindi sayo? :( tao rin ako and napapagod.. DATI kaya kong itake lahat ng pain for you kasi alam kong yun dapat pero NGAYON napapagod na pala ko.. Have mercy naman. Makisama ka.. DALAWA tayong involve dito eh.. Willing akong ayusin natin 'to... KAsi I want this relationship to last pero kung talagang hindi na.. hindi ko na ipipilit pa..

Second:

"I won't give up I'm so much inlove"

Well.. kahit anong pretend gawin ko na kaya kong iwan ka.. I'M A LIAR.. I pretend na kaya kong iwan ka or igive up ka.. Pero at the end of the day alam ko sa sarili ko na hindi.. I preted na kaya ko kasi alam ko yung mga sasabihin nila and I don't want them to judge you.. But then hindi ko sila masisi if my friends would hate you dahil sa ginagawa mo sakin.. Ang nakakatuwa nga lang eh yung bestfriend ko na super nakikita na sobrang hurt ako would say na "bes kausapin mo lang" to think na dapat galit na galit sya sayo pero hindi.. kasi she knows that you love me so much.. alam niyang maayos pa 'to... I'm not asking for a PERFECT relationship.. ang gusto ko lang maayos and kung may conflict man or misunderstanding.. aayusin.. hindi yung hinahayaan lang.. ayoko ng relationship na tinatagao na nga complciated pa..

Forever Grateful

My "baby sisters"
POPULAR GIRLS a.k.a "POPPIE"
MEAN friends
ONE DOZEN eggs

I will be forever grateful because I have these ladies in my life. We may have different personality and perspective. But there's this one thing that I like about them. and that is I know that I can always count on them through ups and downs of my life. I love them so much. I can't imagine life without these ladies. They make me cry, tease me at times but they never fail to make me smile and laugh. I don't know what would my life look like if they don't exist in my life. I thank God because he gave me the opportunity to meet these ladies.

Popular Girls are my closest high school girlfriends. I remember the times when we use to fight other year level because they try to hurt one of our friends. Rain or shine, we were always there for each other. I miss them already.

MEAN friends.. we were friends from high school but when we got to college we found out that we were slowly building our own group. We are the girls who usually likes to "tambay" in my house. No dull moments with them.

Baby sisters.. we three started of as strangers. and who would have thought that we will be friends in facebook then started to become friends personally. I might not see Yelle and Mariz all the time but I am pretty sure that they know how much i love and treasure them.

One Dozen Eggs my college girlfriends. I thank them because every single day of my life in college is wonderful and colorful. We will be forever eggs through thick and thin. I LOVE YOU ONE DOZEN.

I may have a strong personality on the outside. But I am 100% sure I am very weak. I just thank God because aside from my family whom I can always run to, God gave them to me.

Forever is JUST a word

"There are things in life that you can't hold on forever, no matter how much you fight for it"

A line that struck me today while I was browsing the internet. I don't know what's wrong with me. Is it time for me to let go of that LOVE? or it's just that I need some space? Maybe because things are becoming a routine. IS this what you call LOVE and HATE relationship? I'm so sad and confused right now. I don't know. This is not ME. I hate myself right now. HINDI KO DAPAT PINROPROBLEMA 'TO! HINDI NAMAN AKO GANITO EH. sobrang attached at sobrang nagmamahal lang din naman ako.. pero BAKIT KAILANGAN SOBRA KONG MASASAKTAN? It is hard for me to fight for a relationship na alam mong siya gusto na sumuko.. pero magulo kasi everytime I try to end the relationship biglang magiging okay nanaman..

GANITO BA TALAGA KA-COMPLICATED ANG LOVE? :(

SOMETIMES nakakapagod lang :|