Heeyyy!! I know it's weird that for the past few months I've been blogging about how sad my love life is because my ex and I broke up. I promise not to blog about him anymore because I find myself hopeless and I wanted to move on. But then things are getting back to the way it used to be. He's starting to make some efforts and all just to spend his time with me. Those were all unusual for him. We treat each other as bf and gf but the in reality we're not. I know its weird but what can I do. I just love this guy so much! Even now that we have an unofficial relationship, I don't care what other people will say about us. 

Baby it doesn't matter how many years, months, weeks or days we've been together. What matters to me the most is that after that one month of no communication at all, we have learned a lot of things and still in the end we're together. We might have this relationship that other people don't understand, they find it weird or funny but for me this is a relationship that I must be proud of. I love you so much and I don't want to lose you again. No one can and nothing in this world can change the way I feel for you. Thank you for making me feel so special and loved. You always tell me how much you love me. Thank  you for reminding that to me but I promise you that I will never forget how much you love me. Baby I'm sorry for the things that made you hurt and cry. Let's start a new chapter! :)

I love you baby! =)

And I'm back!

Ola! Finally I am back to blogging. I have been very very very busy because of work. Since I don't have work today, I will try my best to share a lot of stories and experiences I have experienced for the past months. :)

ADVANCE MERRY CHRISTMAS!

BRAND NEW ME =)

Hello there! it's been a month since the last time I made a blog. I was so busy with work (that's how showbiz life works) I don't have enough sleep, i often eat( i rather choose to sleep than to eat)--> maybe one of the reasons why I got thin (a bit). I even don't have time to see and bond with my highschool and college friends. HAHAHAHA even holidays.... we don't have this thing called "REST" =)) Since I am working in a television production, it is expected that there's no such thing as rest days or holidays because we serve to people.

As a result of being a dedicated production assistant in our show ENCHANTED GARDEN in TV5.. This is how I look.... eyebags, getting dark skin... I LOOK LIKE A ZOMBIE..

but despite of those effects of my work still I am proud and thankful to work with my team. I found new friends to laugh with, to share stories with.. they are so cool and fun to be with...

I just love this people so much!!!!

and atlast after a year i now have my new hairstyle.. A brand new ME :)

highlights, hair color, bangs--> a perfect hairstyle to describe a brand new ME :)

i love it!!

I will always be your #1 stalker

NO matter what happens.. I will always be here for you! :) Not because I was once your special someone but because I am here for you as a friend that you can count on all the time. :) Nothing has changed dear! :) All I want is for you to be happy. You know how much you mean to me! :* Mr. E. ;)

From Miriam College to TV5

After graduating from college, I found a job that I really like and that is to be a Production Assistant from a Television Network. Searching for a job isn't easy, I experienced applying thru internet, walk-in applications and stuffs. I was hopeless that time because I know that I fail the exam on TV5. And every time my dad would ask me whats the progress of my application I cannot answer him. Then after a month, I got a call from a supervising producer of one of the shows in TV5. After enjoying a month of being a trainee, finally I can proudly say that "Hey guys! Look at me now, I am part of TV5 kapatid network!"-- and that's because of my ID.

With that, I can say that time flies really fast. I miss my life in school especially college. But seriously, I can say that WORKING is really FUN! :) Just enjoy life!

Let's take it slow :)

Today is 21.. and it is suppose to be our 65th monthsary unfortunately we broke up last january. its been 6 months since we broke up and i can say that bitter days are over. But I am not saying that i have definitely moved on from our past relationship. Cause seriously, the last time i posted here was the time that i decided to say goodbye. BUT its seems like second chance is getting in our way. but this time we are taking it so slow. Don't wanna rush things then later on we'll get hurt. This may sound very complicated but seriously, we are happy and enjoying with what is happening right now.

I guess it's time to say goodbye

For the past 4 months of having this weird relationship status with my ex. Last night, I have decided to stop and move on from the past. I have waited for a 5 months but it seems that there are no second chances for us. I know I have said this many times but now I promise to love myself even more.

Trainee Days are over

From left to right: Direk Dibs, Audioman, Myself, Kuya Jeff and Ate Jemah

Direk Aya)

(With the beautiful and makukulit na kids)

(Staff of IDNL)

(Kuya Erwin-AP, Me, Ms. Jhanice-EP and Ate Jemah-PA)

(IDNL Staff with Ms. A, Direk Eric and Egar Allan)

(With Edgar Allan[Papi] ugh! so kilig!)

(With Danita Paner. She"s so pretty!)

click here for more pictures :)

After a month of hardwork, very long patience, being an ID girl(hehe)... FINALLY! Trainee days are over! I am now a regular Production Assistant of our show. This is a good news for me. :) Big sweldo! $_$ HAHAHA.. But seriously, I am really happy because all of the things and time paid off!

Officially Employed

(From left to right: Myself, with Ging-ging of isang dakot na luha and Flynn, an ojt trainee)

(one of my jobs as a production assistant: ID girl! haha)

Finally after a month of searching for a job online, walk-in applications.. I am now officially employed in a television network. A dream come true? Maybe. First day was hard for me because I'm not use to that kind of work but as days pass, I get used to it. Tiring because you need to wake up at 3:00 am and leave the house at 4:30am then you'll get home at 5:OO am the next day. Trainee pa lang ako so there's no allowance. :( But okay na rin cause free food, transportation back and forth and load every week. I guess this time, I really need to have some adjustments. Especially now, the career that I have is a career wherein there's no time for family gatherings, no love life and social life. :( Sad but I have to cause I need this work for experience and also for money. :D

AFTER 8 LONG YEARS

This is a late post actually. So there, last monday my bestfriend slept here in my house because we need to leave the house very early for us to get our driver's license. It's just funny because after 8 long years of being bestfriends, ngayon lang kami natulog ng magkasama and puyatan all the way. HAHAHA. talo pa siya ng ilan kong friends. Pero last Monday was epic, revelations were revealed- shocking! :D

We slept really really late- around 3:30 am and we woke up at 6 am! HAHAHAHA. We even exchanged our lipsticks. HAHAHAHAHA. She got my tea rose and i got her pink lipstick.. hihi
and look what we've got in the afternoon:

(My license with purple case my bestfriend got hers too and its color pink)

Well all I can say is that I just love hanging out with her, endless laugh trips and dramatic moments :))). I LOVE YOU BES! :*

UNAPPRECIATED. :|

Holaaaaa!!! Welcome back to blogging! Well I have lots of stories to tell but right now I'm not in the mood to share it to you. I'm sad right now cause I really felt being unappreciated by my parents. I know that before I wanted to work right after graduation, but I have realized that for somehow I should take a break. It's just that they are blaming me for not following up my application for the company that I had my interview. Well the reason why I don't call or follow up my application because according to the company FREEZE HIRING as of the moment. It's not that I'm too lazy to follow up its just that I don't want them to have an impression to me that I am MAKULIT. Haay.. Sasabihan ka ng hindi ka naman magaling kaya hindi ikaw yung tatawagan, wala ka namang medal. Parang, duuh?? alam ko naman eh. I know I just graduated without flying colors but then, isn't that enough for you to be proud of me kasi I graduated college! :'( Sana naman matutong ma-appreciate. Spent seventeen years of my life studying, I never get a failing mark.

Sorry for this kinda ma-dramang post. Soon I'll be posting some stories that happened in my life for the month of March and April. Bye for now! :)

Love Story

I just wanted to share how our love story started and ended. But I know that the goodbye happened between us is not for forever. :) I still believe in second chances, wala naman mawawala diba? I'm just happy of what is our status right now.

Signs

SIGNS? Yes they are the signs that we see across the streets, in any place. But this blog isn't about the normal signs that we see around us. Do you really believe in signs from God? Well if you ask me, I really don't know. I know that in my previous blog, I promised not to talk about my ex anymore but I have this experienced a while ago that I need to share. Okay? Sorry :|

Hihi.. Well it goes like this... after a month of our break up, I was thinking of asking for a sign from God. I tried to think of a sign but did not asked for a timeline though. Since I use to sing a lot especially when I'm bored so I used a song to make it as a sign. I asked a sign from God that if the song "If ever your in my arms again" will be played ng biglaan (example biglang marinig lang sa radion.. basta hindi on purpose) it means that my ex and I will get back together. A while ago it's been 2 months and dayssssss... since we broke up. While I was on my way to MRT station my ex texted me and asked something and that's it. As I enter the MRT station (North Ave) I heard a music playing but dineadma ko lang. And as I was walking papunta sa dulo ng train station, it seems like the song being played is familiar. Then I tried listening to the song and then biglang "If ever you're in my arms again this time i love you much better, if ever you;re in my arms again this time i hold you forever this time would never end" When I heard the song I said "ahhh if ever you're in my arms again pala yung kanta" then I suddenly stopped walking and I remembered the sign that I asked from God. Is this really a sign or nagkataon lang? Hehe.. Do I really need a sign para di mawalan ng pag-asa that my ex and I deserve a second chance?

SIGN OR COINCIDENCE? WHAT DO YOU THINK?

SOON

haha so i was watching till my heartaches end (a movie of kim and gerald). This is a movie about two people who broke up and after few years, nagkita ulit sila. Seems familiar? Anyway, today is really a heartbreaking day for me. hihi.. As I browse my blog, I have realized that majority of the topics that i have been discussing in my blog is him. HAHAHAHA.. and sooooo... I'm so sorry for being a dramatic and being inlove with my ex. hihihi.. it sounds crazy, but its true.. the feelings is still the same but hopefully.. who knows, i can move on. I just wish that the next time i will do a blog.... it's not just about him.

^just sharin'... :D GOODNIGHT! ♥

That awkward moment

na bigla na lang kinamusta ni mama yung ex ko sakin. And this made me realize na pareho si mama at ex ko-kung kelan nawala tska sila nagiging ganyan. #whazwongwidaworld eh? =)) Si ex nagiging sweet sakin kahit break na kami... Si mama nangangamusta sa ex ko? sa dami ng kakamustahin? Natatawa na lang ako. Seriosuly. :)) haha goodnight!

off to dreamland! ♥

maybe someday...

I suddenly open my tumblr and then I saw this. ^ haha..

SOMEDAY! ;)

Thankful

It's the 71st day of the 365 days... and yet I'm confused....


Naahhh! This time this blog is not just about him. hihi

It's the 71st day of the 365 days and I have realized that despite the heartache I have experienced (actually till now) still I have lots of reasons why I should be thankful for this year. At first, I thought that 2012 is not my year but I'm wrong THIS IS MY YEAR! THIS IS THE RIGHT YEAR FOR ME. I know that God will never leave me. I just have to trust him and follow what is destined for me. :)

UNOFFICIALLY YOURS

is my relationship status :D

A heart to heart conversation

I was browsing pictures from my phone and I accidentally saw this. It made me sad and remembered that...

February 13, 2012

A heart to heart conversation with his dad. This shouldn't be happening at all but it happened. This is the second time that his dad talked to me about our break up. As expected, I cried because I felt how sad and affected he is with what happened to me and his son. "Wag ka muna magpapaligaw sa iba, magtatampo ko para nalaman kong nagplaigaw ka na sa iba" "Gusto ko ikaw talaga para kay jr" "Lagi ko ngang sinasabi kay jr na maswerte siya kasi mabait ka at alam kong mahal na mahal mo siya" "Alam ko rin na mahala na mahal ka ng anak ko". Those words that he said made me cry and somehow narealize ko na gusto niya talaga ko for his son and isa rin siya sa hindi sumusuko na naniniwalang magkakabalikan kami ng anak niya. I know its been 2 months and dapat I shouldn't feel this way na. UGH! But with this, seeing how affected is his dad with our break up.. it's hard to move forward0parang may pinanghahawakan ka pa kasi eh. :( Haii I know in God's time lahat ng mga tanong ko magkakaron din ng sagot.

Whatever tomorrow brings, alam ko it has a purpose. Goodluck!

Rollercoaster. '_'

It's the 3rd of March and still things and feelings are the same. So it's been a week and four days since I had my last blog. Well for the almost 2weeks of not writing or updating my blog, a lot of things happened. February 21st was our supposed to be our fifth anniversary but we broke up last January 2. But now things are beginning to be really really complicated. I went to their house last February 21 because I have to say goodbye to his dad because I decided to really let go. It's hard for me but I guess it's the right time. Before talking to his dad i saw him and then we talked and I was shocked when he hugged me again. And I was like, "WHAT??!!!" but then I felt that things should end right away. After that I talked his dad and as usual I cried :(

After two days my ex and I talked and decided that it's really the end now. But as the clock started to move things began to change... We became sweet again and we say I love you to each other.. But we're over, he doesnt wanted to move away from him. After talking for long hours the next day after, we started to communicate again and act as if we're bfgf again but we're not. Actually this makes me crazy and think so hard. Hahahaha...

Can we go back to the days our love was strong?

Today is supposed to be our fifth anniversary. It's sad but that's the game of life and love. Well honestly, i'm still hoping for the both of us to get back together but since this day has passed already, i guess its now time for me to move forward and start forgetting you. Its sounds easy but seriously, its hard. But this is the best way i think, we should both moved on from the past. STOP everything. This will be the last day that i'll cry because of him. It's sad for me to see his family affected with our break up especially his dad. Its too early for me to say goodbye, but i need to start forgetting him. SERIOUSLY!!! Maybe it'll be hard for me but this is one way of letting him go.

AWESOME! ♥

First, I want to greet myself a HAPPY BIRTHDAY last February 17, 2012. This is me of course, and the mini cake that I'm holding is a surprise cake from my loving and sweet friends.. THE ONE DOZEN.Sweet huh? There are unexpected people who greeted me on my birthday. It was a surprising one, God gave me the sign. ;) I celebrated my birthday thrice, first is the celebration with my ex and his family. (COOL, right?) hahaha next is with some of highschool friends and ex :))) and the most unforgettable is with my lovely college one dozen friends! :)

Okay, the celebration with the EX's family is a surprising one. HAHAHA i felt so much love from them even if i'm the ex. I felt how much they are hoping for us to get back together. All of them we're saying "antay lang kayo." HAHAHA.. anyway, it was an unexplainable feeling when i talked and saw my ex. AWKWARD! hahahaha.. I really love his family and they love me too. Good luck to the next girlfriend(IF there will be, because he might concentrate on his studies first) :D. His family is the sweetest, it's a greta feeling to have people whom you treat as your second family aside from your real relatives hihihi.. :D But i thank the Dinopol family for cooking the baked tahong

(Yummy!!!!)

Next is celebration with my highschool friends and the ex. HAHAHA.. Well this celebration actually is "biglaan". The biglaan thing here is that we invited my ex to be with us and he came. (SHocking because before, whenever I'll ask him if he wants to go with us.. He keeps on refusing..) WHAT HAPPENED NOW? hahaha.. Anyway, this celebration with them is a day full of revelations revealed and still there are a lot of questions running in my mind. But never mind, what's important is that I was happy.

And of course... the celebration with my one dozen friends! :) I gave them a treat at Shakeys Pizza. ALL of us we're really hungry but after finishing all of the food. VERY BUSOG!!! hahaha and oh by the way, SECOND time that they requested for me to eat a veggie :)))


(SEE? HAHAHA)

Oh well, I just thank God because again, he gave me these people especially my family who will stand up with me through thick and thin. And also for giving me another one year, to spend it right! :) THANK YOU God and I LOVE YOU! :)

--- I'm now an adult so I must be mature enough to handle all of the problems or happenings that will come my way!!!----

NEW BEGINNING! NEW LIFE! HELLO ADULTHOOD! ;)

Expect the Unexpected

Today is a day full of surprises. HAHAHAHA the saying "EXPECT THE UNEXPECTED" is really true!!! HAHAHAHA... So i was on my "agenda" for this day. Then an unexpected person texted me and she said that I should go there. I asked why and she said "basta" and so there. I was shocked because as I knocked on the door all of them greeted me an advance happy birthday. Speechless ako. HAHAHAHA.. I saw them sitting on the sofa and my ex was there. HAHAHAHA.. but I felt awkward when I saw him. Unexpectedly, he greeted me in advance for the hearts day tomorrow. HAHAHA butterfliesssssss :D anyway... its weird but I felt happy that all of them are supportive and all of them we're saying"SECOND CHANCE" hahahaha... I really can't explain how I feel right now. All i can say is that it is an advance HAPPY BIRTHDAY for me :) goodnight! :D

ENJOY LIFE! :)

I was brought to the hospital last saturday. My potassium went down because lately I tend to forget eating or sometimes I don't eat. I really don't know why but it seems like because of heavy schoolworks and so many things that is runningin my mind- this is the result IDON'T EAT. At first, I was a bit happy of what's happening to me because my face is getting a bit small and I am losing wieght. BUT it's not good though, it was HELL! I really can't take it last Saturday so my mom brought me to theEmergency room. The doctor said that I should stay because if I will not stay and the potassium continues to go down, my heart will be affected. Since I am afraid to have my heart get affected, I convinced myself that I should and I need to stay. SO THERE. I've learned my lesson. HAHAHAHA Well I just posted this picture because I myself can't really beleive that somehow for that 4 days of not eating, I was able to have a bit small face.

I MUST ENJOY LIFE even if there are a lot of OBSTACLES coming on my way. I believe that I can surpass all of this because God will never give you a problem that you can't face.

It feels really good ♥

Its been three weeks since we decided to stop the relationship but still there's something that's telling me that there is a second chance for us. I'll wait for that day, but I'll just go with the flow.
I'm kinda sad right now because I was shocked knowing that I'm not the only one whose suffering from this break up. I'm sorry if I thought that you're starting to enjoy your life without me :( Sorry for misjudging you :| Now I know that you are really affected with this break up because all along I thought you are happy with the decision that we made.

Well the reason why I feel so good right now is because even though we are apart still between me and your brothers and sister in law did not changed. The connection/communication is still there- they even made me feel that they are supportive to us. "Magkakabalikan kayo niyan, mag-antay ka lang" In fact, they're planning for an outing and balak tayong isama.. THE QUESTION is sasama ka ba? HAHAHA its funny because they are the ones whose trying to help me to understand you MORE. Actually, there are a lot of them whose trying to help me understand you but Kuya and Ate are the ones who really making me understand you. I'm just thankful because eventhough we ended the relationship still nothing has changed between me, your kuya and ate. I hope soon, in God's perfect time everything is back into it's proper places. Right now, I just want you to know that "relationship lang naman as bf/gf yung nawala sa atin, but still gusto ko kahit friendship muna meron tayo" I know it's hard but its the least thing I can do para naman mafeel mong

I'M ALWAYS and WILL ALWAYS be HERE FOR YOU.
I STILL LOVE YOU EDU :(

Sometimes

ONE the things/happenings that I really hate in my highschool life is that they will notice or criticize everything. I know that they care kaya nila yun ginagawa but sometimes nakakainis. And sadly, ganun pa rin pala. I thought nawala na yung ganung attitude.. HELLO sarili kong diskarte gusto ko..

Lahat na lang ba papansinin? Pwede naman eh, pero yung paulit ulit na lang.. NAKAKAPIKON na.. PERFECT?? Maybe for all of you, okay yung ginagawa niyo.. Well, oo okay siya pero minsan talaga sobra na..

FLASHBACK

At some point your life, there are times where you don't want to remember all your memories. But suddenly, it will just happen. Sad to say, it happened to me :(

While I was on my way home, out of the blue bigla ko na lang naalala yung memories namin :( I'm sad :( Ayoko na sana mangyari yun eh.. Kaso bigla na lang nangyari.. Ang tagal na pero wala ka pa din :( Does it really mean na you really want me to disappear? OR you just need some time.. A LOOONNNGGG TIME for you to fix some things. If that's the case, how long will I wait? I don't want to hold on for a long time then suddenly biglang wala naman pala.. Ayaw kong umasa :(

I can do this! Hopefully, maayos talaga :)

How can I move on when I'm still inlove with you?

So basically the title of this blog came from the lyrics of the Script's song entitled "The man who can't be moved"...


My friends would say "wag mong bilangin" and I wil say "okay sige". But seriously, I can't avoid it and I really don't know why. I hate this feeling, yung binibiliang ko pa rin. Just like now, two weeks na since we decided to end the relationship. Pero why nga ba? Bakit ko nga ba binibilang? Maybe because I know na may month na babalik ka? Pero wala ka ngang sinabing babalik ka eh.. HUHU but why am I counting and counting???? Hopefully, as the days pass by I learn how to stop counting since the day you left me. Well, it's a mutual decision. As of now, I really don't know. I'm just going with the flow, I'm enjoying life with friends but still at the end of the day I realized na namimiss kita. :(

UNBELIEVABLE :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MPGGhKQhTFs

I know this very luma na pero no matter how many times I watch it. Super natatawa and amazed na amazed pa rin ako sa boses niya.. hehehe.. galing niya! :)

SOMETHING NEW :)

1 month and 1 more day to go then it's my birthday already! Yay! :D Though this is my first birthday without you. My age on that day is our number. Okay forget about it. :(
So this is a picture of me with a curly hair. HAHAHA but it's just the extension that I bought from my friend Rose Anne. I think it's bagay naman to me :D I can't wait for my birthday because 2 of my friend will help me have my make over. They are the sweetest friend ever! :) I will have my make over from top to bottom! AND I'M SO EXCITED FOR IT!!!! Yipeee!!!

Moving on? Something New? Let's wait for the right time. I need something for me to really let go of him. As of now I don't wanna rush things. I'm just enjoying my life with friends. :)

ONE AT A TIME PLEASE?

Okay.. so this is how it feels like to be a graduating student? O_O It's the second week of class since we resumed but one fourth sheet of paper is not enough for the list of the things that we have to do. :|

> THESIS DEFENSE
> DEVELOPMENT COMMUNICATION PROJECT
> THEOLOGY PROJECT
> THEOLOGY LONG EXAM (TOMORROW)
> STRATEGIC COMMUNICATION PRELIMS AND FINALS
> FRENCH PRELIMS AND FINALS
> MEDIA LAW LONG EXAM (THIS SATURDAY)
> DEVCOMM LONG EXAM which is due tomorrow

I HOPE I CAN SURPASS THIS. AFTER THESIS DEFENSE AND IF WE PASSED. IT'S TIME TO PARTY! :))))))
goodnight! i'll review for my long exam tomorrow :)

Good Bye Doesnt Mean Forever

Breaking up is hard to do. But the truth about love is, it hurts. More often than not, it hurts even more if you stay in the relationship so you decide to break up.

Searching for true love is a frustrating journey.. either you’re married or single. If you’re married, maybe you keep asking this to yourself, ‘Why can’t my husband/wife appreciate my effort to make this marriage work?’. Single people would think, ‘I just want to meet the person who understands me, who appreciates me and loves me unconditionally’ or ‘I don’t want to commit to anyone, because I don’t want to get hurt then my effort will go to waste’. But love hurts! No matter how happy you are in a relationship or how wise you are about it, eventually the person you love will hurt you.


I think there are 2 major reasons why couples break up
1) When there’s no love in the relationship
2) When you love someone so much and the person you love hurt you too much, so you can’t bear with the pain anymore and break up. But, I believe breaking up is a wise thing to do for whatever reason you want to break up. Of course it hurts, no matter how much you understand the benefit of separation, it still hurt you at least in the beginning. So how breaking up can benefit your relationship?

1) When there’s no love in the relationship

So you’ve been with your partner for sometime, you see each other every day. You do the same old thing every day. You know your partner inside out, it makes you lose interest, the love is not growing.. infact it’s dying… so you need to do something more challenging.. The grass is always greener on the other side of the fan. You want to get off the border and explore new things. You are just curious about what you’re going to find out

Then you break up with your partner and become single again. You start to go out and date other people. It’s lots of fun in the beginning because it’s a new thing to you. I can’t deny that you may meet a new and great partner. You must be lucky if you do. But most likely, it doesn’t happen. Eventually, you will realize that what you truly searching for is true love. When the fun is over, you begin to feel the emptiness inside and begin to miss what you left behind, the person who loves you for who you are… So the love that you thought was dying actually still there. You just didn’t know it, the reason is because people don’t appreciate what they have until it’s gone.

2) When you love someone so much and the person you love hurt you too much, so you can’t bear with the pain anymore and break up

Love hurts… the truth is everybody is going to hurt you. In reality, the closer you are to someone, the easier it is to hurt them. So you’ve been hurt, you can’t take the pain anymore and break up.

After the break up, you will have more time alone. You can surely make yourself busy in order to distract yourself from thinking about the pain. But you can’t help thinking about it when you’re alone especially at nights before you go to bed. You may not be able to sleep.. You think, ‘How could he/she do that to me? If someone loves me, he/she wouldn’t hurt me like that’. After days of sleepless nights and thinking hard.. you may find the answers by yourself, one question leads to another question.. until you ask… ‘Why did he/she hurt me? May be because he/she was hurt too..’ You know, you think this way because you care about someone so much.. It makes you realize that you hurt that person too.. So you admit your mistake and you want to correct it.. Then you start to think about the sweet things that person did for you.. and the reason you fell in love with him/her. The urge of wanting to be with that person again will lead to forgiveness. You will forgive that person because you want to experience the sweet love again. Love comes back again and you’re back together, that makes you a new and better person who is ready to improve things in the relationship. At the same time, you also get to know your partner a level deeper. And you may not realize this if you’re still together.

So the conclusion is, if you love someone, set them free.. If they come back they’re yours forever. If they don’t come back, it’s just not meant to be.. Why would you want to be with someone who doesn’t love you.. or someone who is unsure whether he/she loves you? But 90% of couples who break up do get back together and love each other even more after the separation. Those who don’t get back together found a new and better life that they might not discover if they stayed in the relationship. So, whether you get back together or not, it doesn’t matter. What matters is how much that had changed yourself to be a better and stronger person.

---> this is not mine. I just saw this from the Internet. And somehow.. I agree to all the things mentioned on this article :) hahaha.. I can say na

"MAY CHANCE PA!" ;)
goodnight! ♥

♥

For the past 6 days, I've been asking my friends, the boyfriends of my friends about this question "Will he come back?" All of them said that "Kailangan lang niya ng space para mag-grow" Well sad to say, it's my fault kung bakit na-lead sa ganung decision. Pero I've learn from it naman na. SO when he comes back.. IF HE WILL .. then I know what to do. Right now, masasabi kong I'm okay. Siguro dahil hindi ko siya nakikita but if nakita ko siya ewan ko na lang. Sorry pero super hanging talaga.. Anyway.. Kahit ano pang choice nila or opinion nila, stil I'M the only one who will decide. Siguro ngayon, okay na muna ko na ganito. Ayoko rin na masyado kong paasahin sarili ko. So, kung babalik eh di bumalik tatanggapin ko, if not eh di hindi. Atleast sa huli, wala akong pagsisihan :)


Good thing, na alam na rin ng mama ko. Too late dahil matagal na matagal na before ko sinabe and tapos na yung relationship. But still happy ako, hindi dahil di niya ko pinagalitan. Instead inadvice nya pa na mabuti ng nangyari yun atleast I've learn soemthing from it. She's thankful na rin to ____ kasi I told her na never" ko na expereince ang pagkakaron ng other woman. And she said "Bihira lang yung mga ganyan" then smiling face. In short, PASADO na sana sumabalay lang because as of now he doesn't have the guts na harapin sila. Maraming reasons kung bakit di niya yun nagawa. Pero kahit paano, napangunahan ko na rin ang mama ko na we did that "break thing" para sa ikabubuti naming dalawa. And if time comes na kami talaga ang meant to be then meron siyang mabibigay na reason for them to be proud of him. I'm so happy because naintindihan ako ni mama. Too bad dahil naging open ako kung kelan nawala. But who knows, kung babalik man nga si __________ gusto ko maging open pa rin sa mama ko :) hehe.. It feels really good.

SOON- I will be okay :|

I know it's to early for me to say goodbye but after what happened a while ago. I guess it's time for me to start new life without you. I know you still exist but I need to give up slowly because if I keep on hoping then later on I'll fail. MASAKIT YUN! But I'm not in a hurry to move on, what I'm doing right now is just going with the flow.

Second day that you don't exist in my life. I miss you. :( But I guess my friends are right, we need to be apart for a while inorder for us to grow. I know I'll be okay. SOON. its just that I'm still adjusting and I'm not used to this. I hope he understands that this is not easy for me. :( Pumayag lang naman ako sa break up na ito because I realized na tama siya, mas magkakaskaitan lang kami kapag tinuloy natin ito. :| Kailangan kong kayanin ito. When my friend sent him a message and he replied, I really don't know how will I feel about it. Will I be happy because hindi pa din siya nagpapalit ng number( we had a deal na if kung wala na talaga then we need to delete each other's number and changed our simcards) pero he replied meaning yun pa din number niya. I'm happy kasi may feeling ako na umaasa din siya. Or sadyang assuming lang ako? Pero seriously, I'm sad kasi andun yung feeling na "may load pala siya, pero di na siya nagparamdam. Nagstart na rin siguro talaga siya kalimutan ako"

ANG SAKIT LANG.

This is not the first time na nainlove ako pero this is the most painful one. Almost 5 years relationship, alam kong minahal ako nito and mahal ko din naman siya. Hindi naman masamang umasa and magpakatanga sometimes diba? Pero I know na kapag naramdaman kong wala na talaga titigil and magpapagod din ako. It's not easy for me to let him go. :( When we decided to be apart, I felt how much he loves me but he need to let me go-dahil ito yung kailangan for now.

ANG HIRAP MAG-PRETEND NA OKAY KA. PERO PAGDATING SA GABI, PAG MAG-ISA KA NA LANG. MAREREALIZE MO NA NAMAN NA WALA NA TALAGA. HANGGANG SA IIYAK NANAMAN. MAGPAPAKASENTI. MAMIMISS MO YUNG MGA MOMENTS NA KATEXT MO SIYA. UNENDED I LOVE YOUs, SWEET MEMORIES. PERO MAIISIP MO NA WALA NA PALA TALAGA. NA HANGGANG PAG REMINISCE NA LANG. :'(
ISA NA LANG YUNG MEMORIES NA DAPAT MO NG KALIMUTAN.
HANGGANG KELAN KAYA AKO MAGIGING GANITO? :(

FIRST BOYFRIEND.FIRST HEARTBREAK.

FOR SURE MAHIHIRAPAN TALAGA KO NITO :(

I MISS HIM :|

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I'M STILL IN LOVE WITH HIM :'(

58 months ago i found my prince charming and he promised me that he will never leave me. But days before new year, I lost him. And now I don't know if I'll wait for him to come back. Or if I will wait for him- the question is HOW LONG? :(

If he comes back, then go! I will be happy :)
If not, I just wish na mapunta siya sa babaeng mamahalin talaga siya. :(

A sweet goodbye

There are some things in life that no matter how much you fight for it, if its not mean to be then its not.

But still I'm happy cause the break up that I've experienced is not like the other relationships-hatred and sad moments. Instead of doing those things, what we did is we treasured the moments when we're together. I can say that I'm quite okay now. Pwedeng mabilis akong maging okay but still may pain and andun pa rin yung feeling na namimiss mo siya. Of course naman! Matagal na matagal kayong nagsama then biglang isang aarw wala na. hahaha.. Weird status relationship ako ngayon: "Single but taken by heart!" :)))

GOOD AFTERNOON :)

i found my love on 2007 and lost it 4 days before 2012 :(

I need to move on but I really can't. :'( It's hard to move on because it's a 4 year and 10 months relationship. It may seem to be katangahan but I won't get tired of fighting for the relationship. I deserve a second or should I say a LAST CHANCE. Getting rid of him in my life is not easy, I admit it. It is not easy! So I'm really expecting that I will really have a hard time to MOVE ON! But still I'm hoping that things will be okay between us. :( It's really hard for me. I thought that we will be forever but I'm holding on to some things. I will wait for him. I know it sounds crazy and stupid but I LOVE HIM. 2012 please bring back my love before our suppose to be 5th anniversary.

ohhhh heartache :(

IS THIS REALLY GOODBYE?
BUT I CAN'T EVEN SAY GOODBYE CAUSE I KEEP COMING BACK TO OUR MEMORIES.
I WANT YOU BACK :'(