Signs

SIGNS? Yes they are the signs that we see across the streets, in any place. But this blog isn't about the normal signs that we see around us. Do you really believe in signs from God? Well if you ask me, I really don't know. I know that in my previous blog, I promised not to talk about my ex anymore but I have this experienced a while ago that I need to share. Okay? Sorry :|

Hihi.. Well it goes like this... after a month of our break up, I was thinking of asking for a sign from God. I tried to think of a sign but did not asked for a timeline though. Since I use to sing a lot especially when I'm bored so I used a song to make it as a sign. I asked a sign from God that if the song "If ever your in my arms again" will be played ng biglaan (example biglang marinig lang sa radion.. basta hindi on purpose) it means that my ex and I will get back together. A while ago it's been 2 months and dayssssss... since we broke up. While I was on my way to MRT station my ex texted me and asked something and that's it. As I enter the MRT station (North Ave) I heard a music playing but dineadma ko lang. And as I was walking papunta sa dulo ng train station, it seems like the song being played is familiar. Then I tried listening to the song and then biglang "If ever you're in my arms again this time i love you much better, if ever you;re in my arms again this time i hold you forever this time would never end" When I heard the song I said "ahhh if ever you're in my arms again pala yung kanta" then I suddenly stopped walking and I remembered the sign that I asked from God. Is this really a sign or nagkataon lang? Hehe.. Do I really need a sign para di mawalan ng pag-asa that my ex and I deserve a second chance?

SIGN OR COINCIDENCE? WHAT DO YOU THINK?

SOON

haha so i was watching till my heartaches end (a movie of kim and gerald). This is a movie about two people who broke up and after few years, nagkita ulit sila. Seems familiar? Anyway, today is really a heartbreaking day for me. hihi.. As I browse my blog, I have realized that majority of the topics that i have been discussing in my blog is him. HAHAHAHA.. and sooooo... I'm so sorry for being a dramatic and being inlove with my ex. hihihi.. it sounds crazy, but its true.. the feelings is still the same but hopefully.. who knows, i can move on. I just wish that the next time i will do a blog.... it's not just about him.

^just sharin'... :D GOODNIGHT! ♥

That awkward moment

na bigla na lang kinamusta ni mama yung ex ko sakin. And this made me realize na pareho si mama at ex ko-kung kelan nawala tska sila nagiging ganyan. #whazwongwidaworld eh? =)) Si ex nagiging sweet sakin kahit break na kami... Si mama nangangamusta sa ex ko? sa dami ng kakamustahin? Natatawa na lang ako. Seriosuly. :)) haha goodnight!

off to dreamland! ♥

maybe someday...

I suddenly open my tumblr and then I saw this. ^ haha..

SOMEDAY! ;)

Thankful

It's the 71st day of the 365 days... and yet I'm confused....


Naahhh! This time this blog is not just about him. hihi

It's the 71st day of the 365 days and I have realized that despite the heartache I have experienced (actually till now) still I have lots of reasons why I should be thankful for this year. At first, I thought that 2012 is not my year but I'm wrong THIS IS MY YEAR! THIS IS THE RIGHT YEAR FOR ME. I know that God will never leave me. I just have to trust him and follow what is destined for me. :)

UNOFFICIALLY YOURS

is my relationship status :D

A heart to heart conversation

I was browsing pictures from my phone and I accidentally saw this. It made me sad and remembered that...

February 13, 2012

A heart to heart conversation with his dad. This shouldn't be happening at all but it happened. This is the second time that his dad talked to me about our break up. As expected, I cried because I felt how sad and affected he is with what happened to me and his son. "Wag ka muna magpapaligaw sa iba, magtatampo ko para nalaman kong nagplaigaw ka na sa iba" "Gusto ko ikaw talaga para kay jr" "Lagi ko ngang sinasabi kay jr na maswerte siya kasi mabait ka at alam kong mahal na mahal mo siya" "Alam ko rin na mahala na mahal ka ng anak ko". Those words that he said made me cry and somehow narealize ko na gusto niya talaga ko for his son and isa rin siya sa hindi sumusuko na naniniwalang magkakabalikan kami ng anak niya. I know its been 2 months and dapat I shouldn't feel this way na. UGH! But with this, seeing how affected is his dad with our break up.. it's hard to move forward0parang may pinanghahawakan ka pa kasi eh. :( Haii I know in God's time lahat ng mga tanong ko magkakaron din ng sagot.

Whatever tomorrow brings, alam ko it has a purpose. Goodluck!

Rollercoaster. '_'

It's the 3rd of March and still things and feelings are the same. So it's been a week and four days since I had my last blog. Well for the almost 2weeks of not writing or updating my blog, a lot of things happened. February 21st was our supposed to be our fifth anniversary but we broke up last January 2. But now things are beginning to be really really complicated. I went to their house last February 21 because I have to say goodbye to his dad because I decided to really let go. It's hard for me but I guess it's the right time. Before talking to his dad i saw him and then we talked and I was shocked when he hugged me again. And I was like, "WHAT??!!!" but then I felt that things should end right away. After that I talked his dad and as usual I cried :(

After two days my ex and I talked and decided that it's really the end now. But as the clock started to move things began to change... We became sweet again and we say I love you to each other.. But we're over, he doesnt wanted to move away from him. After talking for long hours the next day after, we started to communicate again and act as if we're bfgf again but we're not. Actually this makes me crazy and think so hard. Hahahaha...