It feels really good ♥

Its been three weeks since we decided to stop the relationship but still there's something that's telling me that there is a second chance for us. I'll wait for that day, but I'll just go with the flow.
I'm kinda sad right now because I was shocked knowing that I'm not the only one whose suffering from this break up. I'm sorry if I thought that you're starting to enjoy your life without me :( Sorry for misjudging you :| Now I know that you are really affected with this break up because all along I thought you are happy with the decision that we made.

Well the reason why I feel so good right now is because even though we are apart still between me and your brothers and sister in law did not changed. The connection/communication is still there- they even made me feel that they are supportive to us. "Magkakabalikan kayo niyan, mag-antay ka lang" In fact, they're planning for an outing and balak tayong isama.. THE QUESTION is sasama ka ba? HAHAHA its funny because they are the ones whose trying to help me to understand you MORE. Actually, there are a lot of them whose trying to help me understand you but Kuya and Ate are the ones who really making me understand you. I'm just thankful because eventhough we ended the relationship still nothing has changed between me, your kuya and ate. I hope soon, in God's perfect time everything is back into it's proper places. Right now, I just want you to know that "relationship lang naman as bf/gf yung nawala sa atin, but still gusto ko kahit friendship muna meron tayo" I know it's hard but its the least thing I can do para naman mafeel mong

I'M ALWAYS and WILL ALWAYS be HERE FOR YOU.
I STILL LOVE YOU EDU :(

Sometimes

ONE the things/happenings that I really hate in my highschool life is that they will notice or criticize everything. I know that they care kaya nila yun ginagawa but sometimes nakakainis. And sadly, ganun pa rin pala. I thought nawala na yung ganung attitude.. HELLO sarili kong diskarte gusto ko..

Lahat na lang ba papansinin? Pwede naman eh, pero yung paulit ulit na lang.. NAKAKAPIKON na.. PERFECT?? Maybe for all of you, okay yung ginagawa niyo.. Well, oo okay siya pero minsan talaga sobra na..

FLASHBACK

At some point your life, there are times where you don't want to remember all your memories. But suddenly, it will just happen. Sad to say, it happened to me :(

While I was on my way home, out of the blue bigla ko na lang naalala yung memories namin :( I'm sad :( Ayoko na sana mangyari yun eh.. Kaso bigla na lang nangyari.. Ang tagal na pero wala ka pa din :( Does it really mean na you really want me to disappear? OR you just need some time.. A LOOONNNGGG TIME for you to fix some things. If that's the case, how long will I wait? I don't want to hold on for a long time then suddenly biglang wala naman pala.. Ayaw kong umasa :(

I can do this! Hopefully, maayos talaga :)

How can I move on when I'm still inlove with you?

So basically the title of this blog came from the lyrics of the Script's song entitled "The man who can't be moved"...


My friends would say "wag mong bilangin" and I wil say "okay sige". But seriously, I can't avoid it and I really don't know why. I hate this feeling, yung binibiliang ko pa rin. Just like now, two weeks na since we decided to end the relationship. Pero why nga ba? Bakit ko nga ba binibilang? Maybe because I know na may month na babalik ka? Pero wala ka ngang sinabing babalik ka eh.. HUHU but why am I counting and counting???? Hopefully, as the days pass by I learn how to stop counting since the day you left me. Well, it's a mutual decision. As of now, I really don't know. I'm just going with the flow, I'm enjoying life with friends but still at the end of the day I realized na namimiss kita. :(

UNBELIEVABLE :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MPGGhKQhTFs

I know this very luma na pero no matter how many times I watch it. Super natatawa and amazed na amazed pa rin ako sa boses niya.. hehehe.. galing niya! :)

SOMETHING NEW :)

1 month and 1 more day to go then it's my birthday already! Yay! :D Though this is my first birthday without you. My age on that day is our number. Okay forget about it. :(
So this is a picture of me with a curly hair. HAHAHA but it's just the extension that I bought from my friend Rose Anne. I think it's bagay naman to me :D I can't wait for my birthday because 2 of my friend will help me have my make over. They are the sweetest friend ever! :) I will have my make over from top to bottom! AND I'M SO EXCITED FOR IT!!!! Yipeee!!!

Moving on? Something New? Let's wait for the right time. I need something for me to really let go of him. As of now I don't wanna rush things. I'm just enjoying my life with friends. :)

ONE AT A TIME PLEASE?

Okay.. so this is how it feels like to be a graduating student? O_O It's the second week of class since we resumed but one fourth sheet of paper is not enough for the list of the things that we have to do. :|

> THESIS DEFENSE
> DEVELOPMENT COMMUNICATION PROJECT
> THEOLOGY PROJECT
> THEOLOGY LONG EXAM (TOMORROW)
> STRATEGIC COMMUNICATION PRELIMS AND FINALS
> FRENCH PRELIMS AND FINALS
> MEDIA LAW LONG EXAM (THIS SATURDAY)
> DEVCOMM LONG EXAM which is due tomorrow

I HOPE I CAN SURPASS THIS. AFTER THESIS DEFENSE AND IF WE PASSED. IT'S TIME TO PARTY! :))))))
goodnight! i'll review for my long exam tomorrow :)

Good Bye Doesnt Mean Forever

Breaking up is hard to do. But the truth about love is, it hurts. More often than not, it hurts even more if you stay in the relationship so you decide to break up.

Searching for true love is a frustrating journey.. either you’re married or single. If you’re married, maybe you keep asking this to yourself, ‘Why can’t my husband/wife appreciate my effort to make this marriage work?’. Single people would think, ‘I just want to meet the person who understands me, who appreciates me and loves me unconditionally’ or ‘I don’t want to commit to anyone, because I don’t want to get hurt then my effort will go to waste’. But love hurts! No matter how happy you are in a relationship or how wise you are about it, eventually the person you love will hurt you.


I think there are 2 major reasons why couples break up
1) When there’s no love in the relationship
2) When you love someone so much and the person you love hurt you too much, so you can’t bear with the pain anymore and break up. But, I believe breaking up is a wise thing to do for whatever reason you want to break up. Of course it hurts, no matter how much you understand the benefit of separation, it still hurt you at least in the beginning. So how breaking up can benefit your relationship?

1) When there’s no love in the relationship

So you’ve been with your partner for sometime, you see each other every day. You do the same old thing every day. You know your partner inside out, it makes you lose interest, the love is not growing.. infact it’s dying… so you need to do something more challenging.. The grass is always greener on the other side of the fan. You want to get off the border and explore new things. You are just curious about what you’re going to find out

Then you break up with your partner and become single again. You start to go out and date other people. It’s lots of fun in the beginning because it’s a new thing to you. I can’t deny that you may meet a new and great partner. You must be lucky if you do. But most likely, it doesn’t happen. Eventually, you will realize that what you truly searching for is true love. When the fun is over, you begin to feel the emptiness inside and begin to miss what you left behind, the person who loves you for who you are… So the love that you thought was dying actually still there. You just didn’t know it, the reason is because people don’t appreciate what they have until it’s gone.

2) When you love someone so much and the person you love hurt you too much, so you can’t bear with the pain anymore and break up

Love hurts… the truth is everybody is going to hurt you. In reality, the closer you are to someone, the easier it is to hurt them. So you’ve been hurt, you can’t take the pain anymore and break up.

After the break up, you will have more time alone. You can surely make yourself busy in order to distract yourself from thinking about the pain. But you can’t help thinking about it when you’re alone especially at nights before you go to bed. You may not be able to sleep.. You think, ‘How could he/she do that to me? If someone loves me, he/she wouldn’t hurt me like that’. After days of sleepless nights and thinking hard.. you may find the answers by yourself, one question leads to another question.. until you ask… ‘Why did he/she hurt me? May be because he/she was hurt too..’ You know, you think this way because you care about someone so much.. It makes you realize that you hurt that person too.. So you admit your mistake and you want to correct it.. Then you start to think about the sweet things that person did for you.. and the reason you fell in love with him/her. The urge of wanting to be with that person again will lead to forgiveness. You will forgive that person because you want to experience the sweet love again. Love comes back again and you’re back together, that makes you a new and better person who is ready to improve things in the relationship. At the same time, you also get to know your partner a level deeper. And you may not realize this if you’re still together.

So the conclusion is, if you love someone, set them free.. If they come back they’re yours forever. If they don’t come back, it’s just not meant to be.. Why would you want to be with someone who doesn’t love you.. or someone who is unsure whether he/she loves you? But 90% of couples who break up do get back together and love each other even more after the separation. Those who don’t get back together found a new and better life that they might not discover if they stayed in the relationship. So, whether you get back together or not, it doesn’t matter. What matters is how much that had changed yourself to be a better and stronger person.

---> this is not mine. I just saw this from the Internet. And somehow.. I agree to all the things mentioned on this article :) hahaha.. I can say na

"MAY CHANCE PA!" ;)
goodnight! ♥

♥

For the past 6 days, I've been asking my friends, the boyfriends of my friends about this question "Will he come back?" All of them said that "Kailangan lang niya ng space para mag-grow" Well sad to say, it's my fault kung bakit na-lead sa ganung decision. Pero I've learn from it naman na. SO when he comes back.. IF HE WILL .. then I know what to do. Right now, masasabi kong I'm okay. Siguro dahil hindi ko siya nakikita but if nakita ko siya ewan ko na lang. Sorry pero super hanging talaga.. Anyway.. Kahit ano pang choice nila or opinion nila, stil I'M the only one who will decide. Siguro ngayon, okay na muna ko na ganito. Ayoko rin na masyado kong paasahin sarili ko. So, kung babalik eh di bumalik tatanggapin ko, if not eh di hindi. Atleast sa huli, wala akong pagsisihan :)


Good thing, na alam na rin ng mama ko. Too late dahil matagal na matagal na before ko sinabe and tapos na yung relationship. But still happy ako, hindi dahil di niya ko pinagalitan. Instead inadvice nya pa na mabuti ng nangyari yun atleast I've learn soemthing from it. She's thankful na rin to ____ kasi I told her na never" ko na expereince ang pagkakaron ng other woman. And she said "Bihira lang yung mga ganyan" then smiling face. In short, PASADO na sana sumabalay lang because as of now he doesn't have the guts na harapin sila. Maraming reasons kung bakit di niya yun nagawa. Pero kahit paano, napangunahan ko na rin ang mama ko na we did that "break thing" para sa ikabubuti naming dalawa. And if time comes na kami talaga ang meant to be then meron siyang mabibigay na reason for them to be proud of him. I'm so happy because naintindihan ako ni mama. Too bad dahil naging open ako kung kelan nawala. But who knows, kung babalik man nga si __________ gusto ko maging open pa rin sa mama ko :) hehe.. It feels really good.

SOON- I will be okay :|

I know it's to early for me to say goodbye but after what happened a while ago. I guess it's time for me to start new life without you. I know you still exist but I need to give up slowly because if I keep on hoping then later on I'll fail. MASAKIT YUN! But I'm not in a hurry to move on, what I'm doing right now is just going with the flow.

Second day that you don't exist in my life. I miss you. :( But I guess my friends are right, we need to be apart for a while inorder for us to grow. I know I'll be okay. SOON. its just that I'm still adjusting and I'm not used to this. I hope he understands that this is not easy for me. :( Pumayag lang naman ako sa break up na ito because I realized na tama siya, mas magkakaskaitan lang kami kapag tinuloy natin ito. :| Kailangan kong kayanin ito. When my friend sent him a message and he replied, I really don't know how will I feel about it. Will I be happy because hindi pa din siya nagpapalit ng number( we had a deal na if kung wala na talaga then we need to delete each other's number and changed our simcards) pero he replied meaning yun pa din number niya. I'm happy kasi may feeling ako na umaasa din siya. Or sadyang assuming lang ako? Pero seriously, I'm sad kasi andun yung feeling na "may load pala siya, pero di na siya nagparamdam. Nagstart na rin siguro talaga siya kalimutan ako"

ANG SAKIT LANG.

This is not the first time na nainlove ako pero this is the most painful one. Almost 5 years relationship, alam kong minahal ako nito and mahal ko din naman siya. Hindi naman masamang umasa and magpakatanga sometimes diba? Pero I know na kapag naramdaman kong wala na talaga titigil and magpapagod din ako. It's not easy for me to let him go. :( When we decided to be apart, I felt how much he loves me but he need to let me go-dahil ito yung kailangan for now.

ANG HIRAP MAG-PRETEND NA OKAY KA. PERO PAGDATING SA GABI, PAG MAG-ISA KA NA LANG. MAREREALIZE MO NA NAMAN NA WALA NA TALAGA. HANGGANG SA IIYAK NANAMAN. MAGPAPAKASENTI. MAMIMISS MO YUNG MGA MOMENTS NA KATEXT MO SIYA. UNENDED I LOVE YOUs, SWEET MEMORIES. PERO MAIISIP MO NA WALA NA PALA TALAGA. NA HANGGANG PAG REMINISCE NA LANG. :'(
ISA NA LANG YUNG MEMORIES NA DAPAT MO NG KALIMUTAN.
HANGGANG KELAN KAYA AKO MAGIGING GANITO? :(

FIRST BOYFRIEND.FIRST HEARTBREAK.

FOR SURE MAHIHIRAPAN TALAGA KO NITO :(

I MISS HIM :|

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I'M STILL IN LOVE WITH HIM :'(

58 months ago i found my prince charming and he promised me that he will never leave me. But days before new year, I lost him. And now I don't know if I'll wait for him to come back. Or if I will wait for him- the question is HOW LONG? :(

If he comes back, then go! I will be happy :)
If not, I just wish na mapunta siya sa babaeng mamahalin talaga siya. :(

A sweet goodbye

There are some things in life that no matter how much you fight for it, if its not mean to be then its not.

But still I'm happy cause the break up that I've experienced is not like the other relationships-hatred and sad moments. Instead of doing those things, what we did is we treasured the moments when we're together. I can say that I'm quite okay now. Pwedeng mabilis akong maging okay but still may pain and andun pa rin yung feeling na namimiss mo siya. Of course naman! Matagal na matagal kayong nagsama then biglang isang aarw wala na. hahaha.. Weird status relationship ako ngayon: "Single but taken by heart!" :)))

GOOD AFTERNOON :)

i found my love on 2007 and lost it 4 days before 2012 :(

I need to move on but I really can't. :'( It's hard to move on because it's a 4 year and 10 months relationship. It may seem to be katangahan but I won't get tired of fighting for the relationship. I deserve a second or should I say a LAST CHANCE. Getting rid of him in my life is not easy, I admit it. It is not easy! So I'm really expecting that I will really have a hard time to MOVE ON! But still I'm hoping that things will be okay between us. :( It's really hard for me. I thought that we will be forever but I'm holding on to some things. I will wait for him. I know it sounds crazy and stupid but I LOVE HIM. 2012 please bring back my love before our suppose to be 5th anniversary.

ohhhh heartache :(

IS THIS REALLY GOODBYE?
BUT I CAN'T EVEN SAY GOODBYE CAUSE I KEEP COMING BACK TO OUR MEMORIES.
I WANT YOU BACK :'(