Rollercoaster. '_'

It's the 3rd of March and still things and feelings are the same. So it's been a week and four days since I had my last blog. Well for the almost 2weeks of not writing or updating my blog, a lot of things happened. February 21st was our supposed to be our fifth anniversary but we broke up last January 2. But now things are beginning to be really really complicated. I went to their house last February 21 because I have to say goodbye to his dad because I decided to really let go. It's hard for me but I guess it's the right time. Before talking to his dad i saw him and then we talked and I was shocked when he hugged me again. And I was like, "WHAT??!!!" but then I felt that things should end right away. After that I talked his dad and as usual I cried :(

After two days my ex and I talked and decided that it's really the end now. But as the clock started to move things began to change... We became sweet again and we say I love you to each other.. But we're over, he doesnt wanted to move away from him. After talking for long hours the next day after, we started to communicate again and act as if we're bfgf again but we're not. Actually this makes me crazy and think so hard. Hahahaha...