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A heart to heart conversation

I was browsing pictures from my phone and I accidentally saw this. It made me sad and remembered that...

February 13, 2012

A heart to heart conversation with his dad. This shouldn't be happening at all but it happened. This is the second time that his dad talked to me about our break up. As expected, I cried because I felt how sad and affected he is with what happened to me and his son. "Wag ka muna magpapaligaw sa iba, magtatampo ko para nalaman kong nagplaigaw ka na sa iba" "Gusto ko ikaw talaga para kay jr" "Lagi ko ngang sinasabi kay jr na maswerte siya kasi mabait ka at alam kong mahal na mahal mo siya" "Alam ko rin na mahala na mahal ka ng anak ko". Those words that he said made me cry and somehow narealize ko na gusto niya talaga ko for his son and isa rin siya sa hindi sumusuko na naniniwalang magkakabalikan kami ng anak niya. I know its been 2 months and dapat I shouldn't feel this way na. UGH! But with this, seeing how affected is his dad with our break up.. it's hard to move forward0parang may pinanghahawakan ka pa kasi eh. :( Haii I know in God's time lahat ng mga tanong ko magkakaron din ng sagot.

Whatever tomorrow brings, alam ko it has a purpose. Goodluck!

Rollercoaster. '_'

It's the 3rd of March and still things and feelings are the same. So it's been a week and four days since I had my last blog. Well for the almost 2weeks of not writing or updating my blog, a lot of things happened. February 21st was our supposed to be our fifth anniversary but we broke up last January 2. But now things are beginning to be really really complicated. I went to their house last February 21 because I have to say goodbye to his dad because I decided to really let go. It's hard for me but I guess it's the right time. Before talking to his dad i saw him and then we talked and I was shocked when he hugged me again. And I was like, "WHAT??!!!" but then I felt that things should end right away. After that I talked his dad and as usual I cried :(

After two days my ex and I talked and decided that it's really the end now. But as the clock started to move things began to change... We became sweet again and we say I love you to each other.. But we're over, he doesnt wanted to move away from him. After talking for long hours the next day after, we started to communicate again and act as if we're bfgf again but we're not. Actually this makes me crazy and think so hard. Hahahaha...

Can we go back to the days our love was strong?

Today is supposed to be our fifth anniversary. It's sad but that's the game of life and love. Well honestly, i'm still hoping for the both of us to get back together but since this day has passed already, i guess its now time for me to move forward and start forgetting you. Its sounds easy but seriously, its hard. But this is the best way i think, we should both moved on from the past. STOP everything. This will be the last day that i'll cry because of him. It's sad for me to see his family affected with our break up especially his dad. Its too early for me to say goodbye, but i need to start forgetting him. SERIOUSLY!!! Maybe it'll be hard for me but this is one way of letting him go.

AWESOME! ♥

First, I want to greet myself a HAPPY BIRTHDAY last February 17, 2012. This is me of course, and the mini cake that I'm holding is a surprise cake from my loving and sweet friends.. THE ONE DOZEN.Sweet huh? There are unexpected people who greeted me on my birthday. It was a surprising one, God gave me the sign. ;) I celebrated my birthday thrice, first is the celebration with my ex and his family. (COOL, right?) hahaha next is with some of highschool friends and ex :))) and the most unforgettable is with my lovely college one dozen friends! :)

Okay, the celebration with the EX's family is a surprising one. HAHAHA i felt so much love from them even if i'm the ex. I felt how much they are hoping for us to get back together. All of them we're saying "antay lang kayo." HAHAHA.. anyway, it was an unexplainable feeling when i talked and saw my ex. AWKWARD! hahahaha.. I really love his family and they love me too. Good luck to the next girlfriend(IF there will be, because he might concentrate on his studies first) :D. His family is the sweetest, it's a greta feeling to have people whom you treat as your second family aside from your real relatives hihihi.. :D But i thank the Dinopol family for cooking the baked tahong

(Yummy!!!!)

Next is celebration with my highschool friends and the ex. HAHAHA.. Well this celebration actually is "biglaan". The biglaan thing here is that we invited my ex to be with us and he came. (SHocking because before, whenever I'll ask him if he wants to go with us.. He keeps on refusing..) WHAT HAPPENED NOW? hahaha.. Anyway, this celebration with them is a day full of revelations revealed and still there are a lot of questions running in my mind. But never mind, what's important is that I was happy.

And of course... the celebration with my one dozen friends! :) I gave them a treat at Shakeys Pizza. ALL of us we're really hungry but after finishing all of the food. VERY BUSOG!!! hahaha and oh by the way, SECOND time that they requested for me to eat a veggie :)))


(SEE? HAHAHA)

Oh well, I just thank God because again, he gave me these people especially my family who will stand up with me through thick and thin. And also for giving me another one year, to spend it right! :) THANK YOU God and I LOVE YOU! :)

--- I'm now an adult so I must be mature enough to handle all of the problems or happenings that will come my way!!!----

NEW BEGINNING! NEW LIFE! HELLO ADULTHOOD! ;)

Expect the Unexpected

Today is a day full of surprises. HAHAHAHA the saying "EXPECT THE UNEXPECTED" is really true!!! HAHAHAHA... So i was on my "agenda" for this day. Then an unexpected person texted me and she said that I should go there. I asked why and she said "basta" and so there. I was shocked because as I knocked on the door all of them greeted me an advance happy birthday. Speechless ako. HAHAHAHA.. I saw them sitting on the sofa and my ex was there. HAHAHAHA.. but I felt awkward when I saw him. Unexpectedly, he greeted me in advance for the hearts day tomorrow. HAHAHA butterfliesssssss :D anyway... its weird but I felt happy that all of them are supportive and all of them we're saying"SECOND CHANCE" hahahaha... I really can't explain how I feel right now. All i can say is that it is an advance HAPPY BIRTHDAY for me :) goodnight! :D

ENJOY LIFE! :)

I was brought to the hospital last saturday. My potassium went down because lately I tend to forget eating or sometimes I don't eat. I really don't know why but it seems like because of heavy schoolworks and so many things that is runningin my mind- this is the result IDON'T EAT. At first, I was a bit happy of what's happening to me because my face is getting a bit small and I am losing wieght. BUT it's not good though, it was HELL! I really can't take it last Saturday so my mom brought me to theEmergency room. The doctor said that I should stay because if I will not stay and the potassium continues to go down, my heart will be affected. Since I am afraid to have my heart get affected, I convinced myself that I should and I need to stay. SO THERE. I've learned my lesson. HAHAHAHA Well I just posted this picture because I myself can't really beleive that somehow for that 4 days of not eating, I was able to have a bit small face.

I MUST ENJOY LIFE even if there are a lot of OBSTACLES coming on my way. I believe that I can surpass all of this because God will never give you a problem that you can't face.