SOON- I will be okay :|

I know it's to early for me to say goodbye but after what happened a while ago. I guess it's time for me to start new life without you. I know you still exist but I need to give up slowly because if I keep on hoping then later on I'll fail. MASAKIT YUN! But I'm not in a hurry to move on, what I'm doing right now is just going with the flow.

Second day that you don't exist in my life. I miss you. :( But I guess my friends are right, we need to be apart for a while inorder for us to grow. I know I'll be okay. SOON. its just that I'm still adjusting and I'm not used to this. I hope he understands that this is not easy for me. :( Pumayag lang naman ako sa break up na ito because I realized na tama siya, mas magkakaskaitan lang kami kapag tinuloy natin ito. :| Kailangan kong kayanin ito. When my friend sent him a message and he replied, I really don't know how will I feel about it. Will I be happy because hindi pa din siya nagpapalit ng number( we had a deal na if kung wala na talaga then we need to delete each other's number and changed our simcards) pero he replied meaning yun pa din number niya. I'm happy kasi may feeling ako na umaasa din siya. Or sadyang assuming lang ako? Pero seriously, I'm sad kasi andun yung feeling na "may load pala siya, pero di na siya nagparamdam. Nagstart na rin siguro talaga siya kalimutan ako"

ANG SAKIT LANG.

This is not the first time na nainlove ako pero this is the most painful one. Almost 5 years relationship, alam kong minahal ako nito and mahal ko din naman siya. Hindi naman masamang umasa and magpakatanga sometimes diba? Pero I know na kapag naramdaman kong wala na talaga titigil and magpapagod din ako. It's not easy for me to let him go. :( When we decided to be apart, I felt how much he loves me but he need to let me go-dahil ito yung kailangan for now.

ANG HIRAP MAG-PRETEND NA OKAY KA. PERO PAGDATING SA GABI, PAG MAG-ISA KA NA LANG. MAREREALIZE MO NA NAMAN NA WALA NA TALAGA. HANGGANG SA IIYAK NANAMAN. MAGPAPAKASENTI. MAMIMISS MO YUNG MGA MOMENTS NA KATEXT MO SIYA. UNENDED I LOVE YOUs, SWEET MEMORIES. PERO MAIISIP MO NA WALA NA PALA TALAGA. NA HANGGANG PAG REMINISCE NA LANG. :'(
ISA NA LANG YUNG MEMORIES NA DAPAT MO NG KALIMUTAN.
HANGGANG KELAN KAYA AKO MAGIGING GANITO? :(

FIRST BOYFRIEND.FIRST HEARTBREAK.

FOR SURE MAHIHIRAPAN TALAGA KO NITO :(

I MISS HIM :|

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I'M STILL IN LOVE WITH HIM :'(

58 months ago i found my prince charming and he promised me that he will never leave me. But days before new year, I lost him. And now I don't know if I'll wait for him to come back. Or if I will wait for him- the question is HOW LONG? :(

If he comes back, then go! I will be happy :)
If not, I just wish na mapunta siya sa babaeng mamahalin talaga siya. :(